I am struggling with grief, like losing my mom was so hard and I thought nothing could top that but then I lost my brother and I have been so so broken every since. I am so sad and full of grief I want to be with him and our mom, I never felt such deep sadness as I do about Ricky. My body has physical reaction to missing him.
I feel lonely and so sad and I wish that I could just ease the weight of my emotions and I don't have anything that works and I just get scared I will break and drink after 7 f*cking years I can't believe I even feel this way. I just want something to make the feelings leave me alone.
I am "saying" it out loud so that it does not control me
My little brother and first kid and bestie and just my heart.
I can totally relate to what you're going through. My condolences, prayers and heart go out to you. Your post resonates where I'm currently at. With the recent passing of three of my closest friends it's hard.
However, NO MATTER WHAT I will NOT take a sip of that first drink.
Continue the good fight my friend. I believe in you. Keep posting (weighting) about it
I understand your loss and have been through the losses, keep their memory alive by doing the things you liked about your and son. Take the traditions they have instilled in you and carry them on. I honestly believe that will help you!
Hi there,
I definitely know how u feel. I suddenly lost my middle brother 1/23/26. Both parents gone. F.amily dwindling down.
Keep resisting those urges. 7 seven without alcohol is a serious accomplishment. 8 years on June 23 for me I felt like you. Hang in there. Kerp God 1st in ur life.
Thank you so much for your kind words and forgive my late response. I am so sorry for your losses as well. Happy anniversary to eight years! It is definitely nothing that I will allow myself to use as a reason to drink. It's what keeps me going, my time sober is motivation
and i will be praying for you:pray: